Life, for the past month, has been filled to the brim. Recently, I've been noticing how easy it is to get bogged down by deadlines and responsibilities, when in the midst of business. And, it's difficult to maintain zeal for the art when there are piles of music to learn by a certain date. I often fall into the trap of self-doubt, convincing myself that I must be the best in order to make an impact. But, then there are moments when I am overwhelmed by the realization that I have the privilege of playing music everyday. I had one of these yesterday - as I was rolling into the fifth hour of practice, I was struck with this feeling of gratefulness for the ability to create. I will never be the best, and there is a surprising comfort in knowing the futility of that desire. The moment that music starts feeding my pride and starving my passion is when I should take a step back and reflect on the sheer awesomeness of the beauty in which I am able to participate. What a gift to be able to pursue something that cultivates so much joy.
In other news, last weekend we had a roommate "retreat" filled with lots of hiking, eating, and general enjoyment. My roommates are the absolute best.
And, lastly, you should check my Etsy shop because there are some new things up and coming (jacket pictured below): https://www.etsy.com/shop/withinthewardrobe